02/emotional
Wish I could be emotional
Every day passes by and I watch it all
Never feeling anything
But at least I'm still breathing
Where did my emotions go?
I've forgotten how to feel
I'm just spinning on a wheel
It's like nothing's ever real
Nothing's ever real
Sometimes I think I'm a robot
I don't think or feel, I just do
Even though I know I'm not
I wonder do I have a heart
Empathy, an afterthought
I've forgotten how to feel
I'm just spinning on a wheel
It's like nothing's ever real
Nothing's ever real
Wish I could be emotional x2
06/anxious
My anxiety, it has taken me
On a ride inside my head
I'm a prisoner, with no visitors
Captive to this sense of dread
Sleepless nights, stressful days
Racing mind, always drained
Nervousness, stomach knots
Nothing helps, I'm at a loss
Overthinking what could go wrong next
I'm always feeling, my thoughts are complex
My apprehension with all of this fear
Why can't it all just disappear
The constant worry in my mind, it drives me crazy drives me wild, But why do I keep thinking, all this ... this spinning in my mind. It keeps going, always moving, always I am just assuming That I'll be missing out on life and I'll get left behind
Staring at this screen all day
Reading all the things they say
Everybody's life seems great
But mine will always stay the same
Finally had my chains removed
I got out and felt renewed
Every day was something new
It felt good and changed my mood
But that moment has passed
I have closed off; it could never last
My hope is I get another chance
Before I become more detached
I've been like this all my life
Worried 'bout the things I try
Freaking out all the time
Always asking myself why
Sometimes when I started feeling bold
I would do things out of my control
But my mind - it would start to fold
So, I ran back saying no, no, no
Never even gonna try to think of every single thing that I have ever done or could've, should've, would've done... I'm Over thinking everything that I have ever said to them... so Why do I concern myself with thoughts that I'm not fun
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Constantly I think about the time when I was in my prime, and Honestly, I start to see the signs of me now back in time, I Distantly, would like to be the center and not standing by, but Typically, I seem to leave before the need to say goodbye
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All these stupid memories of when I failed at life, it's like they always seem to follow me - I've always paid the price, so 30 mills of Buspirone is what it takes to stay at home; these Calming meds, I'm in my zone, yeah, I prefer to be alone... and Every situation is much bigger than Titanic, so then Something all up in my brain said I had better panic, so then Why does this keep happening when nothing could go wrong, it's like I Look for things that are not there so I can then withdraw
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My anxiety, it has taken me
On a ride inside my head
I'm a prisoner, with no visitors
Captive to this sense of dread
03/happy
I can't believe it's been so long
Since I last saw your face
I will always remember you
You never change, ooh
You never seem to change
I want to know...
Last time we spoke you were falling apart
You were stressed because
... of who you really thought that you were
Are you better now?
I hope you know...
that you always have a place in my heart
You showed me who I was
I hope you find what you deserve
Are you happy now?
I'm so glad you finally found yourself
You seem happier now
For what it's worth, I think you're brave
Please never doubt, oooh
Please don't ever doubt
I want to know...
Last time we spoke you were falling apart
You were stressed because
... of who you really thought that you were
Are you better now?
I hope you know...
that you always have a place in my heart
You showed me who I was
I hope you find what you deserve
Are you happy now?
07/sad
It's been a long time
I've thought of you each day
I've lived a life you've missed...
It's hard to guess what you would say
Only time will tell of where and when my time here will finally end
And I'll see you again... see you again... see you again
When the darkness fades
and I call out your name, ohh
I hear your distant voice
and I finally see your face
Only time will tell of where and when my time here will end
And I'll see you again... see you again... see you again
11/numb
In dark, I see all the light I miss
But you just don’t see me at all
In light, I feel that I don’t exist
And you take none of the fault
Anxiety... it quietly takes
All of me... and finally I break
My heart, it keeps on beating for me
But I just don't feel it at all
My soul, it was shattered long ago
Now I have begun to wilt
Anxiety... it quietly takes
All of me... and finally I break
12/addicted
You can't control it… it's something you do
Every time you look at me
Makes my heart skip one-hundred thousand beats
Oh, you do, what you do to me
Like it or not, I'm addicted to you
When I am feeling alone then you get me through
Like it or not, you make my life complete
You make my world go 'round and 'round
Because you take me higher
You're my sweet desire, you're why…
And when I look into your eyes, and I get tongue tied
You're why… you're why
When you look at me I… get weak the knees
How can I be the one that you choose from
I'll never understand
Will you ever stop loving me?
Like it or not, I'm addicted to you
When I am feeling alone then you get me through
Like it or not, you make my life complete
You make my world go 'round and 'round
Because you take me higher
You're my sweet desire, you're why…
And when I look into your eyes, and I get tongue tied
You're why… you're why
04/hateful
This doesn't feel like me
What's going on lately, ooh
It's really unlikely
I'm starting to hate me, ooh
Who is this new me
That I see, but shouldn't be
It's so unfair to everyone
It's over now, I had my run
And I hate myself more than anyone
Hate me now, I am done
Been more than a few weeks
Now I need to decrease, ooh
And I need to retreat
Now and completely, ooh
Who is this new me
That I see, but shouldn't be
It's so unfair to everyone
It's over now, I had my run
And I hate myself more than anyone
Hate me now, I am done
09/fearful
Timor intus me... nunc est abire
The fear inside of me... must leave now
All of these fears
They consume my breath
They pull out my tears
My thoughts they infest
Give me the hand
That I need to hold
Now how can I stand
With feelings exposed
I am scared of heights, and I'm scared of the strife
I am scared of big crowds and the thought of me drowned
I am scared of many things, it's true
But most of all, ooh...
I'm scared of losing you (losing you) x9
Most of the time
I overthink things
And I don't know why
This fear then sinks in
Most of the time
I maintain control
But when I'm alone
This fear grips my soul
I am scared of being alone and unknown
I am scared of being judged but I'm numb
I am scared of many things, it's true
But most of all, ooh...
I'm scared of losing you (losing you) x9
Timor intus me
14/fine
Never getting any better, never getting any worse
I'm fine, I'm fine, mmm
I can't explain a single thing I feel inside
Why do I say… why do I always say I'm fine
I take all the pain, then I bottle it up and I set it aside
There are days when I'm in a big crowd
But never been more alone in my life, I'm fine
It's a thing you're just supposed to say everyday: I'm okay, I'm okay
Don't imply and do not sigh, just reply, "I am fine… I am fine"
I'm not depressed, it's really hard to understand
I'm not best, but I do the best that I can
I bet you can guess I'm doing better whenever I give a damn
I confess that whenever someone asks if I'm alright
I simply say that I'm fine, I am fine, I am fine
It's a thing you're just supposed to say everyday, I'm okay
Don't imply and do not sigh, just reply, "I am fine… I am fine"
Then you'll be fine… you'll be fine. You'll be fine. Fine…
I am fine, I am fine, I am fine, I am fine, I am fine
Fine
Never getting any better, never getting any worse
I'm fine, I'm fine
Never getting any better, never getting any worse
I'm fine, I'm fine
Fine
I am fine, I am fine, I am fine… mmmhm, mmmhm
I am fine, mmhm, mmhm, mmhm, I am fine, I am fine