02/emotional

Wish I could be emotional

Every day passes by and I watch it all

Never feeling anything

But at least I'm still breathing

Where did my emotions go?

 

I've forgotten how to feel

I'm just spinning on a wheel

It's like nothing's ever real

Nothing's ever real

 

Sometimes I think I'm a robot

I don't think or feel, I just do

Even though I know I'm not

I wonder do I have a heart

Empathy, an afterthought

 

I've forgotten how to feel

I'm just spinning on a wheel

It's like nothing's ever real

Nothing's ever real

 

Wish I could be emotional x2

06/anxious

My anxiety, it has taken me

On a ride inside my head

I'm a prisoner, with no visitors

Captive to this sense of dread

 

Sleepless nights, stressful days

Racing mind, always drained

Nervousness, stomach knots

Nothing helps, I'm at a loss

 

Overthinking what could go wrong next

I'm always feeling, my thoughts are complex

My apprehension with all of this fear

Why can't it all just disappear

 

The constant worry in my mind, it drives me crazy drives me wild, But why do I keep thinking, all this ... this spinning in my mind. It keeps going, always moving, always I am just assuming That I'll be missing out on life and I'll get left behind

 

Staring at this screen all day

Reading all the things they say

Everybody's life seems great

But mine will always stay the same

 

Finally had my chains removed

I got out and felt renewed

Every day was something new

It felt good and changed my mood

 

But that moment has passed

I have closed off; it could never last

My hope is I get another chance

Before I become more detached

 

I've been like this all my life

Worried 'bout the things I try

Freaking out all the time

Always asking myself why

 

Sometimes when I started feeling bold

I would do things out of my control

But my mind - it would start to fold

So, I ran back saying no, no, no

 

Never even gonna try to think of every single thing that I have ever done or could've, should've, would've done... I'm Over thinking everything that I have ever said to them... so Why do I concern myself with thoughts that I'm not fun

Constantly I think about the time when I was in my prime, and Honestly, I start to see the signs of me now back in time, I Distantly, would like to be the center and not standing by, but Typically, I seem to leave before the need to say goodbye

All these stupid memories of when I failed at life, it's like they always seem to follow me - I've always paid the price, so 30 mills of Buspirone is what it takes to stay at home; these Calming meds, I'm in my zone, yeah, I prefer to be alone... and Every situation is much bigger than Titanic, so then Something all up in my brain said I had better panic, so then Why does this keep happening when nothing could go wrong, it's like I Look for things that are not there so I can then withdraw

My anxiety, it has taken me

On a ride inside my head

I'm a prisoner, with no visitors

Captive to this sense of dread

03/happy

I can't believe it's been so long

Since I last saw your face

I will always remember you

You never change, ooh

You never seem to change

 

I want to know...

Last time we spoke you were falling apart

You were stressed because

... of who you really thought that you were

Are you better now?

I hope you know...

that you always have a place in my heart

You showed me who I was

I hope you find what you deserve

Are you happy now?

 

I'm so glad you finally found yourself

You seem happier now

For what it's worth, I think you're brave

Please never doubt, oooh

Please don't ever doubt

 

I want to know...

Last time we spoke you were falling apart

You were stressed because

... of who you really thought that you were

Are you better now?

I hope you know...

that you always have a place in my heart

You showed me who I was

I hope you find what you deserve

Are you happy now?

07/sad

It's been a long time

I've thought of you each day

I've lived a life you've missed... 

It's hard to guess what you would say

 

Only time will tell of where and when my time here will finally end

And I'll see you again... see you again... see you again

 

When the darkness fades 

and I call out your name, ohh

I hear your distant voice 

and I finally see your face

 

Only time will tell of where and when my time here will end

And I'll see you again... see you again... see you again

11/numb

In dark, I see all the light I miss

But you just don’t see me at all

In light, I feel that I don’t exist

And you take none of the fault

 

Anxiety... it quietly takes

All of me... and finally I break

 

My heart, it keeps on beating for me

But I just don't feel it at all

My soul, it was shattered long ago

Now I have begun to wilt

 

Anxiety... it quietly takes

All of me... and finally I break

12/addicted

You can't control it… it's something you do

Every time you look at me 

Makes my heart skip one-hundred thousand beats

Oh, you do, what you do to me

 

Like it or not, I'm addicted to you

When I am feeling alone then you get me through

Like it or not, you make my life complete

You make my world go 'round and 'round

Because you take me higher

You're my sweet desire, you're why…

And when I look into your eyes, and I get tongue tied

You're why… you're why

 

When you look at me I… get weak the knees

How can I be the one that you choose from

I'll never understand

Will you ever stop loving me?

 

Like it or not, I'm addicted to you

When I am feeling alone then you get me through

Like it or not, you make my life complete

You make my world go 'round and 'round

Because you take me higher

You're my sweet desire, you're why…

And when I look into your eyes, and I get tongue tied

You're why… you're why

04/hateful

This doesn't feel like me

What's going on lately, ooh

It's really unlikely

I'm starting to hate me, ooh

 

Who is this new me

That I see, but shouldn't be

 

It's so unfair to everyone

It's over now, I had my run

And I hate myself more than anyone

Hate me now, I am done

 

Been more than a few weeks

Now I need to decrease, ooh

And I need to retreat

Now and completely, ooh

 

Who is this new me

That I see, but shouldn't be

 

It's so unfair to everyone

It's over now, I had my run

And I hate myself more than anyone

Hate me now, I am done

09/fearful

Timor intus me... nunc est abire

The fear inside of me... must leave now

 

All of these fears

They consume my breath

They pull out my tears

My thoughts they infest

Give me the hand

That I need to hold

Now how can I stand

With feelings exposed

 

I am scared of heights, and I'm scared of the strife

I am scared of big crowds and the thought of me drowned

I am scared of many things, it's true

But most of all, ooh...

I'm scared of losing you (losing you) x9

 

Most of the time

I overthink things

And I don't know why

This fear then sinks in

Most of the time

I maintain control

But when I'm alone

This fear grips my soul

 

I am scared of being alone and unknown

I am scared of being judged but I'm numb

I am scared of many things, it's true

But most of all, ooh...

I'm scared of losing you (losing you) x9

 

Timor intus me

14/fine

Never getting any better, never getting any worse

I'm fine, I'm fine, mmm

 

I can't explain a single thing I feel inside

Why do I say… why do I always say I'm fine

I take all the pain, then I bottle it up and I set it aside

There are days when I'm in a big crowd 

But never been more alone in my life, I'm fine

 

It's a thing you're just supposed to say everyday: I'm okay, I'm okay

Don't imply and do not sigh, just reply, "I am fine… I am fine"

 

I'm not depressed, it's really hard to understand

I'm not best, but I do the best that I can

I bet you can guess I'm doing better whenever I give a damn

I confess that whenever someone asks if I'm alright 

I simply say that I'm fine, I am fine, I am fine

 

It's a thing you're just supposed to say everyday, I'm okay

Don't imply and do not sigh, just reply, "I am fine… I am fine"

 

Then you'll be fine… you'll be fine. You'll be fine. Fine…

I am fine, I am fine, I am fine, I am fine, I am fine

Fine

 

Never getting any better, never getting any worse

I'm fine, I'm fine

Never getting any better, never getting any worse

I'm fine, I'm fine

Fine

I am fine, I am fine, I am fine… mmmhm, mmmhm

I am fine, mmhm, mmhm, mmhm, I am fine, I am fine